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2/18/2007

Today is a big day. We don't smoke since the morning and we put our energy into learing how to use a Dreamweaver 8.

Hopefully we'll have our web site (you are looking at it right now) and our lungs renewed.

2/19/2007

After literally only few hours of playing around with Dreamweaver 8 we were able to put together this very web site. It feels so good to know that you still are able to learn something new! Sorry for the non working links or any bugs you may encounter on the site - it is still in construcion. Anyway, as with filmmaking - web design looks best and cost much less (of your time and money) than working with any web designer. Feel free to send us your thoughts about the overall layout or whatever.

And today it's the second day I don't smoke. Kashka doesn't smoke either.It is time to quit this addiction. We've been smoking for more than 10 years. I can't believe we are still alive. If we succeed it would be an achievement much bigger than web design :)

2/22/2007

Yesterday I almost got myslef a pack of cigarettes. I did not only because I realized that if I smoke - Kashka will probably smoke too. Now I can't smoke because it is not only about me. Anyway, it is 4th day.

2/28/2007

I just realized that in my primary school I was visualizing myslef sitting in a cafe in NYC drinking coffee and watching people passing by. Being so young I wanted to have a life where you don't have to worry about money and struggle on a daily basis. I wanted mylife to be different than that. I wanted to spend my life on meditating about ... life itself. Why I am here? What is death? Why I dont really know who am I? Stuff like that....

That is so interesting. Now I am 33 and I remember myslef so many years ago planning the life I am living in this very moment. Like I had a magic power to design my life. And it seems like I am doing it all the time. Whatever I want from life - I get it. Is it because when I set myslef a new goal I immediately FEEL like I already achievied it? Science says that when you think (and feel it) about running for example - your brain and muscles "are working" as if you were running on the street... That is really interesting... I just watched Secret - the movie about exactly that fenomenon. Documentary is made of short interviews with people who live their life by using the Secret on a daily basis. And all of them say one thing: all humans have the power to create their own future. How? By knowing what they want and FEELING like they already got it. That is so incredible. The film is extremely ... you have to see it. Google: Secret - the movie and get yourself a copy. Or rent it.

My mother has a breast cancer. She started chemioterapy recently. I told her about the importance of keeping the positive attitude because I feel that it's very important thing in healing process. She seems to be very ... changed. She smiles much more and I hear her laughing more often. I want her to be healthy again. She deserves more time. She did not taste so many things in life. I suggested that it would be a great idea if she start planning some travelling in the near future instead of thinking about her cancer. I wonder what is her choice and if it is easy to actually not to think about ones illness.

Let's test the Secret one more time. I am setting a goal: to shoot 20 episodes of a training video How To Make A Web Video For Free and distribute it on the net. And I want to make around 20K by selling it somhow. In a three-four months. I already feel like it did it. Now it is time for the Secret to kick in.

Oh, yes - we don't smoke :) Almost two weeks. I feel like I am not smoking anymore.

I feel good.

4/3/2207

We quit smoking for good. It is over a month now.